Dakotawitch speaks...

Pieces

Jul. 8th, 2009 at 10:38 AM

I'm trying to find my strength, but no matter how hard I dig, I don't seem to be able to.

I know I am better off. I know that I do not need to be with someone who refers to me as pathetic, a failure, unambitious, trashy, weak. I do not need to be with anyone who tells me that a "person like me" can't fit into the cosmopolitan, wealthy life she wants. I do not need to be with someone who belittles my spirituality and lists my failures. I do not need to be with someone who refuses to contribute financially and then also breaks up with me because I can't keep a house that looks like Dwell magazine while also working multiple jobs.

I know this is for the best.

Someone just needs to tell what's left of my heart.

Location:The Office
Mood: depressed

Comments

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thewenchywiccan wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 04:09 pm (UTC)

*hugs* ♥ I'm so very, very sorry. :(

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pixie1771 wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 05:47 pm (UTC)

I've known you for a long time hon. We have stood in circle together, we have cast out into the Darkness of the Void together. I have seen many amazing things in you, beauty, strength, passion, intelligence, and most especially Power.

I think it's time to take your Power back. Your Power from Within. I have a book to suggest. The Chalice and the Blade by R. Eisler.

It's time for you to find your Inner Warrior my sister. Remember the Dark Goddess. Remember who and what you are, a Power to be reckoned with!!!

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dakotawitch wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 08:49 pm (UTC)

It has been many years since I read Eisler. Perhaps it is time to get her down off the shelf again.

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real_bethy wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 06:15 pm (UTC)

Beautiful things await you. I promise.

Remember the G-ddess Kali? She is the g-ddess of annihilation but also of benevolence and redemption. Right now, you are going through a period of destruction but you will move into a period of peace and prosperity.

You are loved. Truly.

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carneillian wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 06:44 pm (UTC)

*hugs* it hurts and it will because with every relationship there is something small that was wonderful. you'll make it through. you've shown scores of perservearance to date, have faith in yourself as others have faith in you. *hugs*

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zestfive wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 06:45 pm (UTC)

ouch, that sounds so painful. I think there's the logical thinking which you know and then the heart thinking...that's the painful rejected part.

I'm glad you made the list of things you're grateful about the breakup, I think you should post that somewhere and add at least one new thing a day to it.

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tarvae wrote:

Jul. 8th, 2009 07:17 pm (UTC)

I don't 'know' you in the reals sense but I still feel for you. So many of us are facing a future that we did not envisage and doing it with courage. If it's any help I'm focussing on the oportunity to learn and grow that my Patron has granted me in this. I'm sure you will come out of this stronger and knowing yourself even more deeply.

Many hugs.

Wend xx

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