Bun's gone, this time for good. She has been back for a couple of weeks, and in the end I just couldn't handle the constant inventories of my failings, the refusal to get a job in the area, the refusal to take any responsibilities, the put downs, the emotional battery. I left an emotionally violent marriage and entered into another emotionally violent relationship. This morning I finally stood up for myself, and that was it.
She packed what she could and bailed. She'll be back for the rest soon.
I don't know what impact this has on my tentative plans to move to Houston.
I'm devastated but OK.
She packed what she could and bailed. She'll be back for the rest soon.
I don't know what impact this has on my tentative plans to move to Houston.
I'm devastated but OK.
- Location:Casa del Soul
- Mood:
depressed


Comments
Sounds like, maybe, she was looking for an excuse. And there is no reason you need to put up with a violent relationship.
I know we never met, but if you need anything, let me know.
I am very proud of you, really.
I you need anything, I am there.
**hugs**
I know the pain you are experiencing. I left a relationship that was emotionally and eventually physically abusive six years ago. It was five days before our wedding. My heart was so broken, I literally could not breathe. I thought I would truly die from the heartache. I want you to know that I did keep on living. I kept taking in air. I got through each day somehow, someway. I know that you are going to do the same. You may not feel like it right now, you may not want to...and that's okay. Just know that you will get through this.
I'm here for you. If you need to talk to someone, if you need someone to talk to you, if you need someone to share silence with...I'm here.
**BIG HUGS**
xoxoxoxo
Hon I agree with everyone. You took the right step, maybe the hardest one, but the right one nonetheless.
Holler if you need a shoulder or an ear.
What everyone else said. Bt I know that just becase yo're doing the right thing doesn't stop it hurting.
If you need to, let's find you a job here.
It feels a little bittersweet, good and sad at the same time. Relationships are hard. I'm here if you need anything.
Two things. First, there is a saying, "People come into our lives for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." Obiously she wasn't there for a lifetime, so the real question is if she brought some change to your life or was just something of a placeholder. I know I'm being very analytical here, but hopefully it'll bring some insight when you're ready for it, and since it's on my mind now, it's a good time to put it out there.
Second, you mentioned you've been in two abusive relationships in a row. That makes me ask what it is about abusive people that draws you? Were either of your parents abusive? Are you playing out that, or is it something else? I wish you were closer, as I'd really like to chat about this with you in person. But Irving to Denton is a long walk.
All that said, I'm really sorry this happened, and you have all my heartfelt feelings for you and your situation. Know that you are loved by people who care about you, and that we're here for you. If you need to, feel free to give me a call, and if you don't have the number, send me a private email at nyyki at gypsyheir dot com and I'll get it to you.